I have noted that sovereignty issues at a more physical level can often be seen through our basic duality of electrical and magnetic fields. In simple terms, if it is our electric field that is vulnerable, we will tend to experience more mental/ emotional distress. If electrical issues do come into the picture more physically, it will likely be in the format of things like allergies or other chronic disorders that the medical system cannot deal with directly. Electromagnetic sensitivities are included here. Bipolarism and a great many mental disorders are perpetuated through electrical field vulnerability.

If it is more about magnetic field vulnerabilities, the issues are far more physical. Cancers and the like. Yes, all issues are holistic and involve all layers but I have noticed a priority in how each distressed polarity expresses itself within the framework of our life.

We do - and we do not - lose our sovereignty.

While we can have vulnerable boundaries on some levels, especially if these were never taught to or passed onto us by our parents, we do not lose our sovereignty at the most spiritual levels. We create our own show. We do not let anyone else cross our boundaries, stir our souls, look into our minds, interpret our feelings, read our thoughts or harm us physically - unless we ourselves sanctioned that as being of use to us. People will pick up things about us that they are supposed to pick up about us. On a need to know basis. As in we need to know at that moment on our path and we have picked them to relay this into experience for us. We are sovereign unto ourselves. We are whole.

If that is the case, we may not * feel * we are whole. This is the crux.

Being sovereign and feeling sovereign can be vastly different. For most of us, being and feeling sovereign is indeed vastly different, hence all the power wars within and without. We feel others can or are doing things "to us" and this trips the alarm that we need to protect ourselves.

The more we do this the more we are separating. The more we separate, the more we widen this gap between knowing we are whole and feeling this truly. In fact, to the degree that we feel we must protect ourselves, that is the degree to which we do not feel our sovereignty. And this is the degree to which we also might run around trying to fill our "holes".

When I first became aware of our subtle layers and of deeper goings-ons in general, one of the first things I did was run head-first to a belief that I needed to protect myself. It seems that this is a classic cognitive way to interpret not feeling whole.

When I first chose to go down spiritual pathways in a serious sense, I then was simply becoming aware of how much I did not feel sovereign! Before this point I simply hadn't ever tuned into this. It would take much more explanation to go into the process and details of this, but this is the crux. I hadn't felt sovereign before but I simply hadn't known it as radically - as consciously - as I did when I began tuning in.

Instead of understanding this gift of awareness and deeply exploring what it meant to me in general, I took it as a surface sign. It was me against "them". I looked for and found many ways outlined in books and such on how to protect oneself. Circles of protection. Cutting ties with people who were sapping me. Setting crystals to make protection grids. Little devices of various sorts. I thought I was finally outlining my boundary. It was a bit disconcerting to see that none of this ever made me feel truly protected for long (big clue yet one we deliberately ignore!). The need for protection just kept getting larger in fact. So I just kept thinking that I needed to augment my modes of protection. Depending how reactive and proactive one is we can ramp ourselves up to high stakes in no time - and in the process lose our ability to exist normally in the world. This was what I had done.

We are sovereign though. So this is like saying I was trying to protect myself from myself! Logically this will not work - and it did not work - because who knows us better than we do? We can create hugely complex and fearful episodes, designed to gain our undivided attention. I have found that Nobody can outsmart us better than we ourselves. We may put many outer faces on it. Other people are those outside faces. This is part of our brilliance in designing the perfect capers. And we all play roles for one another in these ways; we validate our fears, stroke our egos...but also give ourselves love and happiness with and through those around us in many cases. There is one hard and fast rule: nobody does anything to us unless with our express permission at some level. We are sovereign. There are no chance encounters nor coincidences of any sort. We simply may or may not be able to discern what the real deal is with our conscious brain power.

How to close that gap between knowing we are sovereign and truly feeling sovereign? We may need to begin with our subconscious. Most of what gives us conscious pain comes from subconscious knots within us.

A very good basic policy is to Open Up anything that is locked or feels tight. At any levels, especially the less visible layers of ourselves. This starts with our express permission as sovereign to do so. If we still feel we need to protect ourselves, we will not be giving that full permission. We may want to, but we will be holding a part of that war-code in place. This is what I have learned personally.

I have also learned that the more I open up the better I feel. I may not even know how to open up, but that's ok. That I am willing to work on it means the most. Intent and heart are everything.

The more I open up, ironically, the more solid my boundaries actually have become. The less "holes" I have and the more I can feel "whole". I have had people tell me not to open my heart so wide, to protect my light. I think that what saves me every single moment of my life IS that I am open. That I am willing to open up in any way I may not be. That I am actively looking to be open. Not actively looking to block, to separate. Can you see this as a basic spin mechanism that shapes our entire life? Either reverse or forward spin. Our will to live and our very most basic code for doing so. Forward spin is open, emanating outwardly and brilliantly. Reverse spin cycles constantly back inwardly and we are then constantly being bombarded with reverse momentum which feels , well, scary and locked (and painful sometimes too) . We are trying to fling reverse momentum outward though, so it is going to come back to us as an outward mode in appearance. Aka - people or others doing things "to poor little us". However, this is much more akin to a boomerang we didn't know we threw that comes back to hit us on the head. To which we throw up even more powerful attempts at protecting ourselves from this. To which comes right back at us this even greater energy of reverse spin. It is a vicious cycle of our own making. And for me this was ongoing until I understood I was fighting my own sovereignty! And gosh that power I was fighting was supremely strong! Because I - we all - are sovereign and thus supremely strong!

Our ultimate goal is to truly feel that way.